Thoughts on motherhood/parenting lately

-nursing is one of the best things ever: soothing a baby in almost any situation and helping mommy burn calories 

-knowledge is not necessarily power...I feel like a more informed parent this time around, but it makes me more stressed knowing more potential dangers. I'm sure if I have a third I will be more informed then too...that kinda happens naturally.

-having two little ones is A LOT of work...never much time to rest unless I let things go, like the house...which I'm doing right now ;)

-time is going by so much faster with Cullen than with Rylan...he's gonna be 1 in no time it seems :(

-I'm pretty sure my sweet Rylan is acting out lately due to jealousy. He never shows any jealousy toward Cullen directly, but he acts out a lot in defiance and whininess.

-I used to want Rylan to want his mommy more, but now that he does...it's exhausting. 

-my days are filled with spit up, dirty diapers, many trips to the potty to "supervise" and keep Rylan company, feeding Cullen every 2-3 hours during the day, feeding Rylan and cleaning up his messes, trips where I weight lift 20 lbs and then 30 lbs repeatedly in and out of car seats in and out of strollers and when nap time rolls around (if Cullen is cooperative and if I can resist relaxing or watching tv) then I try to tackle laundry or cleaning up one or many of Rylan's tornado messes. Life is busy, but it is fun most of the time. Rylan keeps me laughing and Cullen's sweet snuggles and smiles are just what I need when I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I love my boys so much and wouldn't trade my life for anything. I don't think there will be a third little Heck anytime soon though. I have my fill right now :) 

-I can't think of anyone better for me than Cameron to experience parenthood with...he is such a wonderful daddy. Always making time to play with and snuggle with his boys. Every day he gets home from work he can't wait to hold Cullen or play with Rylan. I can't imagine doing it without him. 

Cullen: 3 Months

*You sleep till somewhere b/t 5:30-7:30 each morning

*You LOVE to be talked to...you smile so big and show off that dimple that mommy loves

*you have started having some gas issues that makes your tummy hurt...still not as bad as your big brother had so we're happy about that

*You do not like bottles and won't eat more than a couple ounces from one and you don't like nursing under the cover either...makes our outings a little tricky or short

*You haven't liked your paci for a while now...you prefer your hand. It sounds painful, but you love sticking your fist in your mouth and sucking away. We think you'll suck your thumb, but who knows

*You are still very easy going and hardly ever get upset...I wonder how long this will last

*You are becoming more vocal...you love to interact with us when we talk to you, coo at you or whistle

*You are wearing 6-12 month clothing and weigh close to 20 lbs now...my gentle giant